Today is one of them

Some days, I just want life to be over and done. I live a miserable existence of a life. I never get to see the people I care about, I can't eat or drink the things I like, I sit in a truck alone most of the time and I hate it but there is nothing I can do about it. This is the only job that I am intelligent enough to do that will provide a decent income, my health dictates my eating and drinking. I find it absolutely hilarious when people say "if you eat a healthy diet, exercise and lose some weight you will be happier". That is so much bullshit! I have lost 20 pounds in the last two months and I am constantly miserable. I can't have bread, potatoes, deep fried foods, beer, wine, chips...you know all of those things that actually have flavor! I hurt all of the time and I am tired all of the time because of the exercise and I am honestly starting to think that it just isn't worth it to continue this existence.