Is it hard to imagine that I might need a break from life, people, everything once this van adventure draws to a close?

It’ll have been nine months on the road with a kid, then a solid two weeks to get back across the country. I haven’t had time to myself at all. Is it so hard to imagine I might want to hide for a bit? Or if that is my need, is it impossible to respect?

I’m being made to feel like I’m an evil jerk for wanting some space to myself to check in. To pause and breathe for once. Has anyone ever spent that amount of time alone with a child and dog, doing everything, all the basics which were never readily available like in a house (think walking 20 minutes to switch the laundry over, cooking outside on the ground), plus hiking, swimming, climbing, exploring, driving, daily adventures that require heavy thought and research because every where we went we were new and didn’t know what to expect. I have busted my fkn ass and given everything to my son and this healing journey…

Is it so shitty that want to balance, relax and clear up my headspace? Am I jerk?