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CrazyMusicLover · 31-35
I only have sleep paralysis and bouts of anxiety and intrusive thoughts right after I wake up from time to time. I never woken up screaming, kicking or sitting bolt upright. I also know the feeling of dread but I guess it's common after a nightmare. Dread as a deep sense of loss, as being overwhelmed by loss or an imminent threat of loss of something or someone very important. Like waking after a dream where you witness an ugly accident where someone is severely burnt or harmed in other way. The seconds right after it happened and you are just starting to process what exactly happened and you momentarily freeze and get paralyzed by dread of it all. And this feeling lingers even after you wake up.
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CrazyMusicLover · 31-35
@Gusman I can't say I feel tired. Just shaken and very pensive.
It's much better than when I was a child. Now it occasionally happens when I wake up earlier and worries about my future creep in while I'm in a half-asleep state. I usually suppress them telling myself it's nonsense, it's just some metabolic or hormonal stupidity going on. Last time it happened I even thought something like "if only I cared this much in my full woken state so at least I would start actively working on improving my situation." 😅
When I was a child I couldn't just tell myself something like that because I didn't understand why I was in such state in the first place so the worries only grew like a snowball and formed into episodes of severe anxiety, even OCD. I am not from a religious family but for some time the only thing that used to help me to fall asleep again was praying. Then luckily came the day when I was able to tell myself it was stupid and I forced myself to embrace the fact that there are things out of my control and it's useless to worry about them in advance. Whatever is supposed to happen it will happen...
As for dread caused by nightmares, they don't happen to me much anymore. I had one a few days ago but it was after a very long time with no nightmares.
There are other states that I occasionally experience in the middle of the day when I recall a particular dream, which are hard to describe. Maybe the closest to it is a state of odd melancholy, awe, nostalgia and sublime. It's not necessarily bad, just unusual and otherworldly.
It's much better than when I was a child. Now it occasionally happens when I wake up earlier and worries about my future creep in while I'm in a half-asleep state. I usually suppress them telling myself it's nonsense, it's just some metabolic or hormonal stupidity going on. Last time it happened I even thought something like "if only I cared this much in my full woken state so at least I would start actively working on improving my situation." 😅
When I was a child I couldn't just tell myself something like that because I didn't understand why I was in such state in the first place so the worries only grew like a snowball and formed into episodes of severe anxiety, even OCD. I am not from a religious family but for some time the only thing that used to help me to fall asleep again was praying. Then luckily came the day when I was able to tell myself it was stupid and I forced myself to embrace the fact that there are things out of my control and it's useless to worry about them in advance. Whatever is supposed to happen it will happen...
As for dread caused by nightmares, they don't happen to me much anymore. I had one a few days ago but it was after a very long time with no nightmares.
There are other states that I occasionally experience in the middle of the day when I recall a particular dream, which are hard to describe. Maybe the closest to it is a state of odd melancholy, awe, nostalgia and sublime. It's not necessarily bad, just unusual and otherworldly.
CrazyMusicLover · 31-35
@Vivaci It's hard to get those things out of your head on another day. 😓