I can't seem to figure out what my purpose is...

I've had these "stages" before and each one is as unsettling as the last one. Just when I think I am on track, I seem to lose my bearings. It seems childish to go through these "lost" episodes time and again.

I am spiritually stronger than ever before and I am thankful for that, but still I'm not sure I have any real intended purpose. I am finding it's not so each to stay focused on rejoicing when this kind of feeling is trying to command my attention.