Is the absence of love the most abject pain?

I’m so sorry to hear that. The sense of never belonging is a cruel type of suffering indeed. @Anonymartyr

@LukeTheDuke You nailed it. The sense that I "don't belong" makes it hard to remain living in the same place. Yet I do more for this community than just about anybody. And I am poor and crippled.

The way that disabled people are treated in this world is one of the cruelest injustices. So many can’t see beyond a person’s disablement and see the good person behind it who has so much to offer. I’m sorry you’ve had to battle this problem , truly you’ve had more to deal with than most people would go through in ten lifetimes. One of the finest people on the old experience project website was a guy who had the same problem and his writings had the greatest impact and gave me the most help of anyone on the site.

If you ever want to talk by private message please feel free. All the very best to you.@Anonymartyr

@LukeTheDuke I was crushedcrusader, an EP volunteer. You might be talking about my past posts under that name.

@LukeTheDuke Give my stories a read.

I’ll definitely give your stories a read. And thank you for being such a great contributor. Not only have you done good in your community you’ve also done it at EP and by the sounds off it on SW. You’re a good hearted man. @Anonymartyr

@LukeTheDuke Thank you. Not many feel that way about me here. I try to use my enormous downtime to solve the problems that oppress me and everyone else like me as opposed to simply making myself feel better. At the end of the day I am consoled by my effort, whether successful or not because unlike most people, I DID something about it.