Have you ever just randomly started crying because you have been holding in all of these emotions and pretending to be happy for way to long?

Yeah, that happened to me once. It wasn't really that I was pretending to be happy, but more like I was just bottling up how disappointed I was in myself, my shame, and my sadness. I didn't have anyone to talk to, and I still don't. A few weeks ago, I just started crying and it felt like I couldn't stop. I would stop for a few hours, then start back up again and that lasted a week or two.

Yes, many times, even while asleep... last time, two days ago...

I've had tears steam down my cheeks from pure joy and love and happiness ...

Yep. Repression only lasts for so long before something breaks

I break down once or twice a year.

Ya. Everyone have had one of those

Yes. Sometimes something unexpected reminds me of something that I thought I had put behind me, and all those old feelings come flooding back. It can be overwhelming at times.

I remember it cracking through a bit when I had to work while dealing with two deaths.

im on hormones.. so guess random crying happens but not yet for me

Yes.

My whole life