It Won't Get Better

No matter what happens, the cycle stays the same. It was never the job. It was never the company I kept. It was never circumstances. It was me. The problem was and is me. It will always be a life lived out of focus.

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Peaceful · F

I hear you. What about you is the problem do you think?

bunnyXbunny · 36-40, M

@Peaceful Everything. Who I am. The things I do. The screaming in my head that is lashing out as physical violence. Too many holes. Too many scars. Too many times I've failed people.

Peaceful · F

@bunnyXbunny sounds like you had a rough childhood and haven't healed from it. I'm very sorry to hear this. Have you ever gone to someone for help? :(

bunnyXbunny · 36-40, M

@Peaceful No. It feels futile. Pills and mantras to help keep the screams at bay. Less myself than a bad sketch of me.

Peaceful · F

@bunnyXbunny it may be worth exploring, if you could find someone you really connected with. At least consider it so you don't feel so alone.