Have you ever suddenly lost someone very, very close to you?

Yep. Lost all 4 of my grandparents, had a friend kill himself and had my entire friend group abandon me all during a similar period of time.

I coped by abusing drugs, self harming, binge eating and several suicide attempts. Eventually I got the help I needed and am doing just fine now after being able to accept the past.

Yes it did get better.