Do you know how to make your life better? If so, why havent you?

I dont know what to do with myself when i am alone. I am never more depressed and suicidal than when i am alone, in the dark, in the quiet. I dont know if my personal road to happiness is to have more time with myself. Its like my mind is trying to kill me - i want to let the darkness out not hole up inside with it. :( @livingaloha

@Genieinabottle I'm no doctor, nor do I know the circumstances of what you're going thru... but maybe you need to find a purpose with your life. Is there a hobby or a cause you're interested in? I started volunteering at the thrift shop at the adult daycare my mom goes to. I signed up for a hiking club who goes on hikes and helps clean up hiking trails. When you're down...you have to search for something that's going to bring you up. And staying at home alone is not going to do that. Chin up...one day at a time.