How to break free from people who don't truly love you?

I am so starved for love I hold on to a relationship with my mother who didn't take care of my basic needs (food/safety/heat) as a child and let me be abused to the point I have PTSD. I'm in a relationship with a controlling/emotionally abusive bf.

I know neither of them a show they love me through actions. They both say they love me, but their actions hurt me. When I need them they are not there.

I'm so starved for love that I want to hear them say they love me. In the back of my head I hope they will show me love through their actions.


I don't feel like anyone has truly loved me.