If life is about freedom then why am I not free to take my own life?

@PoetryNEmotion I find you pretty likeable Poetry'. Maybe I have a masochist streak or something but I like your passion. I still love my wife. I still love Shopgirl 💖 as well. It's different. Shopgirl has moved on, she said she was open to being with me still recently but when I moved the slightest toward her she pulled back so she has moved on. I don't understand why she would contact me after so long and say she wanted to be with me and then when I say maybe she pulls back, oh, maybe, it depends on " where I am at that time" wtf? Where were you two weeks ago? Where are you now? 😯. I don't understand Poetry'. Women are no not the easiest creatures to deal with. Men are much easier. If it weren't for all the,,,,,well, you know DICK STUFF being gay would be so much easier! Lol.