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Depression for me is when I honestly feel that my family would be better off without me. I feel like I am a burden and unloved. Neither of these things are true, but when I am depressed no one can convince me otherwise. I sleep up to 24 hours a day and overeat. I can't see the positive in anything ,but my mind exaggerates and fixates on the negative and even imagines negatives that are not there, until I want to crawl under a rock and die. When I reach this point I start thinking of leaving this world. I have had depression as part of my bipolar type II for many years, but I have only attempted suicide 3 times. One of those times, however, was due to very violent child abuse when I was 9 years old. Now when I start feeling this way I know I need to see my doc and get on psych meds, but luckily is has been 4 months since I have been depressed.