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My boyfriend and I hadn't exactly broke up, things never went that far. We distanced, then spoke about him being possessive. After a talk, with a friend. A friend who knew us both. It came to the point were I was questioning my boyfriends past relationships, why he is needing an overload of devotion from me, and so very controlling. And asked him just to have confidence and a bit more trust. And I thought we reached a conclusion....until last night!!..the next night out and drinking!!!...He did chase me, and is constantly showering me with gifts. The gifts arent necessary, but I wondered why he has bought me quite expensive gifts, early on in the relationship, and at such random times?. My talks about A) my journey (first relationship as a woman)...B) my epilepsy (and medications) and C) Social Anxiety (due to discrimination) not scared to go out and be who I am..but scared to approach the new!!. He said he was understanding, and he was very caring...but he expects me to be with him and only him!!...At a LGBTQ bar last night, a gay guy came up and approached him, and he awkwardly smiled and said "I'm straight, and with my girlfriend"...when I was smiling..he was furious I didnt confront the guy...well??...considering you're not interested in guys, I wouldn't call it a threat??..the guy was flamboyant.....And another gay guy, a guy I knew saw me...and said I looked beautiful and kissed me on the cheek..My boyfriend wasnt happy....I said "He's gay!!, he's someone I know from my area!!...but then later on...he was very devoted..all touchy..and I was as close with him as close can be, dancing, enjoying ourselves, kissing....but at one point!..I don't know??...Because I have generalised anxiety, or quite observant, I might have looked uneasy in some way....But there was nothing I recall that went wrong!!...A guy came over and asked if my boyfriend was bothering me and if we need security..and it might have been cause my boyfriend was more possessive of me...very devoted!!...I said to the guy "I'm fine, hes my boyfriend!!"....but then my boyfriend started talking to him...and I said to my boyfriend "do the decent thing and let it go, the guy is drunk..forget about him!!...but my boyfriend was more concerned that I stopped him, and didn't have a go at the guy....My boyfriend then later went outside for a cigarette and spoke to the person...then later he came in, and took me out, to speak to me..and to tell me I'm not giving him enough...cause I'm the one who pulls away after endless kissing...and cause I'm hesitating just based on experience...but I plan us going places, meeting up, and going on dates...And the last part about last night was.....at closing time...he was smoking and talking to girls...and I was out talking to guys. One guy who was drunk. My boyfriend so kindly said he would help him get home. The full time the guy was saying positive things to me, complimenting me (the guy was gay)...he was telling my boyfriend to look after me...and when my boyfriend was chatting to others, the guy said in my ear..."hes a very chatty, and helpful person, he's a keeper!!!.....but later on, my boyfriend, thought the guy was my friend, someone I knew, and that was the only reason for getting him home safe....when I told him, ge was just someone I spoke to outside at closing time...he said, the full time the guy was threatening him, whispering in his ear that he's going to stab him,.....when all along the guy was whispering positive things through my ears........so I don't think the guy was negative to my boyfriend at all.....I reckon my boyfriend is so insecure its scary!!!!...I wonder what his previous relationships were like?? x
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booinflipflops2 · 41-45, M
When he is possessive, does he get violent and threaten you or the other person?
Sorry you have all of that anxiety, I fight with that as well. I have found in regular clubs/bars I am very anxious, but feel a lot less in gay bars…. The people are definitely much friendlier and less judge mental.
enjoyingitnow · 61-69, M
Sounds like he is exhibiting warning signs you might want to reconsider this relationship. Good luck and be safe

 
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