I Am In Support of Transgender and Genderqueer People
My New Year Resolution, I could attempt to be more approachable. And I suppose for a majority "interesting". Stereotypes have always played with my mind, Epilepsy has always enhanced my nerves, and just the journey of transioning male to female not being fully understanding in cultures or generations, there's lots to juggle. It's never that I don't have time for people either!. My social anxiety kicks in from the minute I feel I don't fit in, from the minute my identity is questioned?. And all it does is give off the impression I'm not interested in anyone when I retreat for time to regroup, when my nerves are trembling inside..Two things have happened...The first one is Stereotypes... 1."You're a woman, trapped in a mans body?..should you not be a natural at this?".."At what? Everything these young girls have practiced in their prime?, im just adjusting to it now after years of being surrounded by "stereotypical males". The awkwardness when they didn't quite fully understand why I hadn't clicked at their talk, gestures, and mannerisms. I was too honest,...And I don't quite have the same relationship with those girls.
2. A man, like twice my age, was chatting to me, and the subject eventually came up,.. I brought up LGBTQI+...And after all being well. He suddenly said "Are you a man?"..I said "I'm a transwoman!"...He sort of distanced himself a bit, saying "He's a bit uncomfortable". And at first I thought "Each to their own"....But?..I asked "Why?"....He said "I thought you were nice and everything, but I'm now afraid everyone will be watching me!"....So I said "What if they are!!",.."You could be anyone for that matter!!!..My uncle, my dad etc" I could be talking to family!"...and you're embarrassed cause it looks like a "relationship"..."just treat me like a human being..do the decent thing!"
But, I do get anxious..people do come over and talk, some ask questions, and some say things clueless! completely mindless!. When I distance myself people think I don't like them....I'm scared..... My resolution will be to "Feel the Fear, and do it Anyway!".
