I hope you grow comfortable in your own skin, that’s all you need lovely, you don’t need to look like a girl. But you could probably talk to a doctor with that area of expertise. <3
Well, this isn't a direct response to the post but I think it is relevant or related in a tangential sort of way.
I'm a crossdresser and I go out in public wearing skirts, tights, ankle boots, blouses, jewellery, colourful jackets and fluffy scarves, etc. But I have a beard, and receding hair. So I'm obviously not a woman. But on a recent shopping trip I went to a dozen different shops including big department stores dressed like this:
Those ankle boots have heels of hard leather, people can hear me coming from quite some distance away depending on the flooring material so I can't claim that no one knew I was there.
I felt fabulous, on top of the world! Out of the hundreds of people I passed I was one of very few dressed in a skirt, most women were wearing trousers and low shoes (often trainers, yukk). I didn't notice anyone react at all.
Like you I'm having trouble getting to the point, if there even is one.
Perhaps it is this: you don't have to be hairless to be feminine nor hairy to be masculine and everyone changes as they age.
That probably didn't help you, sorry; it's all part of my use of SW as a kind of therapy, it lets me express what I cannot say to friends and family.
Good luck with whatever you decide to do and don't make any hasty decisions.
@ninalanyon I've noticed a lot of people think that I think I need to look a certain way to be "feminine", which is definitely not the case.
I just don't like myself to be hairy. I find it rather "disgusting". And anything I want to do (but don't) is because of my personal thoughts/opinion of it, not what other people think. On top of that I kind of have my own view of "girly", I suppose. So for example, I wouldn't go around in a skirt or general female clothes because I think that I look bad in them. Not that I was thinking of wearing clothes aimed towards females like skirts and such, I already don't like wearing shorts ... so yeah, that's a thing XD Besides there are clothes that are more feminine within male clothes, that I personally do like and wear if they fit that is.
this Q wasn't for me, but why can't guys/gals have beards and wear dresses? why should you be anything but what you are in this moment? fuck what everyone else thinks, you will never please them. but you can live change and live by example. what do you want to express? fear or courage? this is coming from a chick with body hair. i know it's not the same but i decided to stop hating myself just because society says you "have" to be one way, look a certain way, do everything the same as everyone else. fuck 'em.
@PurpleStar sorry, i'm ignorant about this stuff but i'm also curious. i just wish people didn't feel so pressured to be anything but themselves. no one is perfect. you are beautiful.
@lovelywarpedlemon That's just the entire post tho. I couldn't be myself back when I was young. Making me what I am now and now that I am older, I feel like I can't be what I feel like I am because of well, everything mentioned above, including age :(
