When you realized?

i realized that woman turned me on when i stole and read my dad's playboys. i was too young to know what it al meant. i thought i was just turned on my sex period. two neighborhood and i fooled around for years but again i was really young and really innocent. then in 6th grade it hit me. we were at a girls school production of the musical carousel. the butch female lead that played the lead male role was the most attractive thing i had ever witnessed. i realized that i may be gay. it scared the hell out of me. i had relationships with men until my 30's. lol but then i had my first female relationship and it was awesome and so right.