Struggling, need help...

1.) I don't trust anyone and I never want to see these people

a. My dad (was never really a dad to me)
b. Old co-workers (stalking)(harassment)
c. Former friend (stealing)(lying)(stalking)
d. My brother(assault)(lying)(stalking)

2.) I have no where to go I tried leaving the state, they followed me. I've had to quit three jobs because they talk to the people I work with. I tried living/working at a hostel but they followed me there. I tried going to a homeless shelter they followed me there and I was getting death threats and shit which I really don't care, but they followed me there too.

3.) I try to workout at the gym and I get harassed. I tried going to the cops and they threw me into the fcking hospital. Everytime I leave the house people follow me around.

I don't want to live anymore and there's no one that I can go to for help. I don't talk to anyone one now because I think they are in on it. I've told my mom and a couple siblings about it and they all blew me off and made it seem like I was talking nonsense. I feel stuck and unable to enjoy the things I used to. If I go to the coffee shop or library I always see former coworkers. I want to press charges. But every time I call I get told to call someone else or that they'll get back to me and I never get called back. I don't currently have a phone because I've been out of work. I've been miserable for so long now and I don't know what to do.

Any tips or if you've had similar problems please let me know how you got over it.

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MikeHurts · 56-60, M

The dates are messing with me. :-)
But I now see that this is still active and apparently still an issue.

Let me ask you a question if this indeed still going on.

Do you play chess?
I hate the game myself but it is a game of strategy played in extreme confined area and with strict rules for each piece to be able to move.
I guess it's purpose is to show people that even when confined by very strict rules and limited resources there are ways to manipulate your control of any situation or place if you use and understand what is allowed and how to win.
Some people only need to know and understand the rules to any game in order to be able to win.

I say this because it looks like you have had a ruff go with the system in regards to receiving any assistance in dealing with this bad element that has been causing you discomfort.

I saw another person comment here and it got me thinking.
What would work best for you, to me, is to get into the the system as deeply as you can.
Get yourself a doctor and a psychiatrist and even a counselor.
First off these people have connections to healthcare, housing and even legal.

First you have to build up your forces and get them on your side and cheering for you.
Get involved with as much assistance as you can receive. You might even get into some of those support groups they sponsor at those free clinics for abused women and drug addicts.
For someone with limited resources this is a gold mine.

This would seem to be the best way to build a support system that is built on the premise that they are there to help.
After you establish a strong base then you begin to have clout by proxy.

That is all I have to offer. Sorry.
There are resources available but you have to make them help you. That sadly involves becoming a part of a system you may not think much of at this point but "the enemy of my enemy is my friend".