Struggling, need help...

1.) I don't trust anyone and I never want to see these people

a. My dad (was never really a dad to me)
b. Old co-workers (stalking)(harassment)
c. Former friend (stealing)(lying)(stalking)
d. My brother(assault)(lying)(stalking)

2.) I have no where to go I tried leaving the state, they followed me. I've had to quit three jobs because they talk to the people I work with. I tried living/working at a hostel but they followed me there. I tried going to a homeless shelter they followed me there and I was getting death threats and shit which I really don't care, but they followed me there too.

3.) I try to workout at the gym and I get harassed. I tried going to the cops and they threw me into the fcking hospital. Everytime I leave the house people follow me around.

I don't want to live anymore and there's no one that I can go to for help. I don't talk to anyone one now because I think they are in on it. I've told my mom and a couple siblings about it and they all blew me off and made it seem like I was talking nonsense. I feel stuck and unable to enjoy the things I used to. If I go to the coffee shop or library I always see former coworkers. I want to press charges. But every time I call I get told to call someone else or that they'll get back to me and I never get called back. I don't currently have a phone because I've been out of work. I've been miserable for so long now and I don't know what to do.

Any tips or if you've had similar problems please let me know how you got over it.

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LadyGrace

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this. It sounds incredibly tough and overwhelming. I believe you and want you to know you're not alone. Have you considered reaching out to organizations that specialize in supporting people who are experiencing harassment or stalking? They might be able to provide you with guidance and resources that can help. Some options include the National Domestic Violence Hotline (1-800-799-7233) or the National Center for Victims of Crime (1-855-484-2846).

I'm proud of you for taking steps to overcome all these things and I think you're definitely headed in the right direction, going to Bible studies and fellowshipping with those who will love and support you. Keep up the good work. God promises to help us through all these struggles and he always keeps his promises. I would still, however, seek counseling so you can have more support. They can better understand these things and know how to guide you gently. That's what God gives us these doctors for and I think it's important that we listen to them. They know ways to cope that we don't and I definitely think they are helpful.

He shall keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee. Isaiah 26:3

This verse tells us that it takes our cooperation and participation in keeping our hearts and minds in Christ, if we want that perfect peace that passes all understanding. It is achieved by deliberately choosing what we allow and give permission to come into our minds, because you know that devil is always wanting to make us depressed or anxious or think on negative things. But we are to train our mind in that moment, to switch our focus and keep our minds on Christ and keep it stayed on Him, as the verse says and that is what will produce perfect peace in our hearts and minds, as the Holy Spirit speaks to us and fills our heart with that peace that only He can give. That is the key.

Lostpoet · M

@LadyGrace Thank you for sharing that and there are councilors here. I have a hard time talking about stuff. But scripture study and prayer have made me feel better about myself and I'm getting ready to move forward in my life as a Christian of God.

LadyGrace

@Lostpoet That is definitely very encouraging and I'm so so proud of you. I believe God gives us counselors and it's a blessing and privilege to have them and be able to go to for help. They have strategies and techniques that we don't even know about all the way and they're definitely here to help us and God uses them, and I praise God for that. I've had to go to them and there's nothing shameful about it. It's good that they keep things confidential and you can relax and speak your mind, and I believe God wants us to voice our hurts and traumatic experiences. In that way, we can release them in a healthy way. It's important to voice these things and get validation. We're not broken. We just need a different way to cope and counselors can help us do that. I hope you'll reconsider. One way to get our feelings out, is to speak about them. I believe God wants us to do that. There's nothing weak about that. God said he can make us strong again and when we release all those pent up negative feelings that are hurtful feelings, that's when we begin to heal, so I hope you won't deprive yourself of the blessing of counselors, that can really help us.