Struggling, need help...

1.) I don't trust anyone and I never want to see these people

a. My dad (was never really a dad to me)
b. Old co-workers (stalking)(harassment)
c. Former friend (stealing)(lying)(stalking)
d. My brother(assault)(lying)(stalking)

2.) I have no where to go I tried leaving the state, they followed me. I've had to quit three jobs because they talk to the people I work with. I tried living/working at a hostel but they followed me there. I tried going to a homeless shelter they followed me there and I was getting death threats and shit which I really don't care, but they followed me there too.

3.) I try to workout at the gym and I get harassed. I tried going to the cops and they threw me into the fcking hospital. Everytime I leave the house people follow me around.

I don't want to live anymore and there's no one that I can go to for help. I don't talk to anyone one now because I think they are in on it. I've told my mom and a couple siblings about it and they all blew me off and made it seem like I was talking nonsense. I feel stuck and unable to enjoy the things I used to. If I go to the coffee shop or library I always see former coworkers. I want to press charges. But every time I call I get told to call someone else or that they'll get back to me and I never get called back. I don't currently have a phone because I've been out of work. I've been miserable for so long now and I don't know what to do.

Any tips or if you've had similar problems please let me know how you got over it.

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Nebula · 41-45, F

Hey why are these people stalking you?

Lostpoet · M

@Nebula I have no idea I was friends with my coworkers at one point but they were connected with my other friend who fcked me over and stole from me and treated like sht when I was working with him. I texted once to get my money back and he told me I should get a job and other stuff that I know he would have never said to my face because I would have dropped him. And I had to quit that job because they all left leaving me fearing I'd lose my job in retaliation for them leaving or something. It wasn't worth working 70hrs a week at minimum pay and not even getting paid my full work hours. I told my friend that I wish I never met him and he better not see me again. Which is true I wish I never met him in the second grade and he's done nothing but steal from me. And so I figured after doing that and having no connection to my previous job that I could get on with my life but that never happened and so I've had to quit three other jobs and each job I quit I tell them I can't work because I have coworkers following me playing stupid childish games. I don't know why they are following me I've made it clear I never wanted to see them again.

BibleData · M

@Lostpoet Sounds weird. Who cares if they follow you? It takes two to play games so don't play. Ignore them. If they can get you worked up they win, you lose. Yourself. Or you're making all of this up and there's something you're not saying. Forget the money your friend owes you, consider it the price of an education. Don't loan again. Don't quit a job because people are dicks. Everyone everywhere is a dick. You and me included. If this is all exaggerated to get attention find a more positive way to do that. If it's all in your head watch the film A Beautiful Mind and get treatment. Don't let people, including yourself, family and friends get the best of you.

Lostpoet · M

@BibleData It's not fcking schizophrenia if you left a job in not good terms and then these people followed you around and recorded you you wouldn't be fcking be happy either, nobody would.

I've read that book as well as many other books on the subject. I'm nothing like John Nash. I don't have any of his symptoms fckers were messing with me and now all of a sudden I can't get hold of noone? If this shit happened to you how would you feel if someone said that you just had a mental health issue?

BibleData · M

@Lostpoet Okay. What about the other possibilities I mentioned? A drama queen, are you?

Lostpoet · M

@BibleData No, maybe just someone who really holds grudges. When I quit a job I don't expect my boss and coworkers to follow me aroud. And if people are messing with you following around you are supposed to be able to go to the cops without being called a liar and put into a mental hospital with aggressive schizophrenic put on your medical record. I've quit and had to start over many times because these people were following me around and all of a sudden nobody can find them so I've had to live with for years complaining to everyone that this really bothers me but nobody listens. I haven't been able to live my life and it isn't fair I didn't do anything.

Lostpoet · M

@BibleData How would you feel if people just all of a sudden started following you and you didn't want them to. You wouldn't be happy either.

Lostpoet · M

@BibleData And I am the youngest sibling maybe their is a little bit of drama queen, but I never wanted to see these people again and they had no right of following me and playing games with me. PTSD and Anxiety aren't nice to have and now I can't do anything without having panic attacks. I don't have schizophrenia just because these people won't admit to following me doesn't mean I have a mental disorder, but now I have that stigma permanently put on my medical record because of these people.

Carissimi · F

How do your former coworkers follow you. Don’t they have to be at work? Where do all these followers find the time to follow you, and what do they say to you when you confront them? @Lostpoet

Lostpoet · M

@Carissimi I don't confront them i just leave and i don't know why they were following me around, but it's illegal and it wasn't funny it was actually pretty traumatic. And it's gone on for years.

Carissimi · F

I don’t see how they can follow you around when they have jobs and homes themselves. And not to ask them after all these years of following you, makes no sense to me. Ask them. @Lostpoet

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