This is hard for me to write.
I murdered my wife.
Barristers and psychiatrists can discuss my mental state, that it wasn't premeditated etc but I killed her.
I then repeatedly plead not guilty, allowed the prosecution to present the case then instructed my brief to present nothing. Thus I was sentenced to longest term. 15 years no parole until 75% through.
I served 23 years. It's easy to stay in prison once you're there just fuck up every time they talk about parole, governors court etc you're going to stay in.
I've been out 8 years now. And obviously on a lifetime licence, report to probation, report to police etc. I was looking at being homeless when my mum died just that alone would have meant instant return to prison for me.
My punishment will never end for me. I accept what I did I can never forgive myself.
