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BetweenKittensandRiots · 36-40, MVIP
For a truly terible reason too, I got in violent altercation with mom and felt awful immediately after and was told by doctor it was largely due to his prescribing paxil and my inconsistently taking the SSRI and the medication just back fired as I Was likely in withdrawal.
I was terrified, it was in the midst of my relationship with my Ex, I had thought to get anti anxiety medications because I had thought it would be kind thing to do for her because believe it or not I felt like my being freaked out all the time put a lot of unnecessary pressure on her.
I was I guess trying to do the sweet thing for her but panicing that day and lost internet connection and tried to reconnect on her machine and had cut on my and and she yanked my hand off her mouse and tried to shove me out of her room and I just overreacted and attacked her for it and ended up in jail...
Ive lived with her for ten years after that at this point and been very little other than supportive and never violent again so I think it goes to show my doctor wasn't wrong...
I just own this because like if someone does background check they're going to see the dropped charge and if they dig deeply enoguh they'll find out aways so might as well just get out right in front of it.
I had long had strong feelings against men who hit women even before that point so it didn't do a lot for me in terms of self confidence but it seems fairy likely if I can have access to victim for over 10 years with 0 incidents that I'm probably a peaceful person who isn't the ticking time bomb people have been saying I am and am more likely just someone who under the Wrong conditions and influence can do things I never thought Possible for myself to do...
I tried to do the considerate thing for my ex failing to account for the likelyhood that i'd forget totake medication and it ended up a disaster. also I Was not fully aware of the risk.
I was terrified, it was in the midst of my relationship with my Ex, I had thought to get anti anxiety medications because I had thought it would be kind thing to do for her because believe it or not I felt like my being freaked out all the time put a lot of unnecessary pressure on her.
I was I guess trying to do the sweet thing for her but panicing that day and lost internet connection and tried to reconnect on her machine and had cut on my and and she yanked my hand off her mouse and tried to shove me out of her room and I just overreacted and attacked her for it and ended up in jail...
Ive lived with her for ten years after that at this point and been very little other than supportive and never violent again so I think it goes to show my doctor wasn't wrong...
I just own this because like if someone does background check they're going to see the dropped charge and if they dig deeply enoguh they'll find out aways so might as well just get out right in front of it.
I had long had strong feelings against men who hit women even before that point so it didn't do a lot for me in terms of self confidence but it seems fairy likely if I can have access to victim for over 10 years with 0 incidents that I'm probably a peaceful person who isn't the ticking time bomb people have been saying I am and am more likely just someone who under the Wrong conditions and influence can do things I never thought Possible for myself to do...
I tried to do the considerate thing for my ex failing to account for the likelyhood that i'd forget totake medication and it ended up a disaster. also I Was not fully aware of the risk.
