I miss him

I miss my husband....😭
I did search after him 47 years! I marry him two and half months ago and before 5 days he did die....
I miss him!!! I feel so alone!!! I did leave country, job....all to be with him and now i am country less, homeless, jobless.....and my children wait that i am strong and fix everything.
I miss him😭😭😭
I need to feel him...
He hold me every night like i was a child...when I turn myself he check that cover warm me. When we hold each other we did miss each other....i am so empty, powerless....less than shadow.
He not just leave us but did take my soul and heart with him.....
How i will survive
How i can take care of children
What i must do....
I am so tired