I Would Like To Share My Thought Of The Day
Today:
It's been a while since I said anything especially here. I hit a very good place in life in the last few months. I can't explain the peace and happiness I was in because of myself and not because of who was in my life, what money could buy, whether I thought I was in good shape, whether people that should love me have betrayed me. There was nothing that was coming into my peace and contentment. I have never been there in my life and it just felt so amazing.
A few days ago, a had a friend say something to me and try to "change' me into what she thought I would be. I told her I had no interest and she went at me like a dog with a bone. I continued to stand my ground and I did. She tried to shame me to believe what she believes, she judged me harshly and I was sorely lacking. One of the other women kind of made one comment to support the other woman. Oddly, I left that night and I was fine just disappointed.
I took the weekend to process it but the one thing that came out of it for me is that I definitely needed space from those two. The more vocal one is good about that but the one that just made the one comment has been sending me text after text. I have not responded and I feel fine with that position, but it's like she feels me pushing her away and she is coming at me more and more. I realize that I have to say why I am doing this at some point and I am trying to handle it where I won't hurt her but at this point I needed her to respect my wishes and back off.
So my peace and contentment has been puncture some. I am trying to not let it all be taken away, but i know if it is, shame on me for allowing it.
I have called the vocal one to speak to her. She owes me an apology. I know I might not get it and then I will have to decide whether I want to continue to be in a friendship with her.
I will get my peace and contentment back.
It's been a while since I said anything especially here. I hit a very good place in life in the last few months. I can't explain the peace and happiness I was in because of myself and not because of who was in my life, what money could buy, whether I thought I was in good shape, whether people that should love me have betrayed me. There was nothing that was coming into my peace and contentment. I have never been there in my life and it just felt so amazing.
A few days ago, a had a friend say something to me and try to "change' me into what she thought I would be. I told her I had no interest and she went at me like a dog with a bone. I continued to stand my ground and I did. She tried to shame me to believe what she believes, she judged me harshly and I was sorely lacking. One of the other women kind of made one comment to support the other woman. Oddly, I left that night and I was fine just disappointed.
I took the weekend to process it but the one thing that came out of it for me is that I definitely needed space from those two. The more vocal one is good about that but the one that just made the one comment has been sending me text after text. I have not responded and I feel fine with that position, but it's like she feels me pushing her away and she is coming at me more and more. I realize that I have to say why I am doing this at some point and I am trying to handle it where I won't hurt her but at this point I needed her to respect my wishes and back off.
So my peace and contentment has been puncture some. I am trying to not let it all be taken away, but i know if it is, shame on me for allowing it.
I have called the vocal one to speak to her. She owes me an apology. I know I might not get it and then I will have to decide whether I want to continue to be in a friendship with her.
I will get my peace and contentment back.
