Digging deep into this narcissism shiz

I only realized in the past year or two that my Mom and older brother are narcissists. In a clinical sense. I know this word gets tossed around a lot but it's a real thing . I know we all have characteristics of narcissism in some way blah blah blah ...but I refuse to invalidate my experiences to make others comfortable...I'm not saying I'm petfect by any means ...I'm far from it ...but I won't not talk about it ...I will talk about it as I see fit . It makes sense to me per choices I've made in my past ....I just need some place to put this thought ....I don't want or need pity ...I just need to get these thoughts out of my head so I can move on ...

* random brain dump *

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Lilymoon · F

My mom was too. Although I never realized it until after she died.
I have anger towards that but nowhere to place it.
So I just try to move on from it. It's all you can do. 🤷🏻‍♀

catastrophecarnival

@Lilymoon I get that ...my Mom is alive ...I have a lot of resentment

Lilymoon · F

@catastrophecarnival yep

OlderSometimesWiser · F

Glad you feel comfortable sharing and I hope it proves helpful. 🫂

catastrophecarnival

@OlderSometimesWiser I used to not want to talk about it ..
But if I can talk about it ...it means I'm healing from it and it means that it no longer plays center stage in my psyche ... maybe it means something different to others but that is what it means to me

OlderSometimesWiser · F

@catastrophecarnival Sounds like talking about it helps clear the deck of the negative, which makes more room for the positive. And that’s a wonderful thing. 🙂

catastrophecarnival

@OlderSometimesWiser That's my plan

Nebula · 41-45, F

I'm sorry you had to live like that ☹

catastrophecarnival

@Nebula it's ok ...I'm just trying to understand why I am the way I am and it all makes sense

Nebula · 41-45, F

@catastrophecarnival ugh yeah, I do that with things too, and sometimes it's painful looking back

catastrophecarnival

@Nebula I'm no longer in pain over it ...it's more looking at it objectively without the emotion tied into it ...I see it ...I just don't feel it anymore

Madmonk · M

My response to this was already too tiring so I said F it and noped out. Wrote this cop out instead.

Namaste 🙏

catastrophecarnival

@Madmonk mmmkay

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