how do you get over past public embarrassments & humiliations

[c=7700B2][i]in my long ago past i had behavioral problems because of my personality disorder ...and a few times in public i was physically attacked in full view of the public, crowds of people, lots of women saw it.......it happened because i would have these uncontrollable outbursts and it would provoke negative attention from shady types and i was set upon and attacked and got hurt..

but even before those times i got into a fight in secondary school, because this other lad was teasing me and poking fun at me...i jumped up and had an outburst....and he punched me in the back of the head and got me into a strangle hold on the ground......all the girls in class saw this because it happened in the classroom at the time....i couldn't breath and another kid or teacher had to tell this lad to get off me.....and when he did i had an anger fit, a violent explosion of anger and i threw one of the chairs in class at that kid who had me in a strangle hold.....i was only around 14 at the time and i started crying in full view of all the girls and other pupils..............an ambulance and my mother and father were called to the school to take me home and all the kids were laughing at me crying, as i was being took home by my mother and father.....i was always a mamas boy.


anyhow, those occasions, albeit long ago were very embarrassing and humiliating for me and to this day i still haven't gotten over it and i'm now 46.

i still feel very angry at being publicly humiliated like that all that time ago.[/i][/c]