I Am a Dreamer and a Thinker

I've not long finished watching the animation 'Anomalisa' and in some ways I can relate to the central character Michael Stone. I can understand that sense of finding each person the same to talk to (albeit not literally) like there's no distinguishing characteristics to ignite something passionate inside oneself, to feel engaged with the person and why it feels so special to find someone who stands out alone amongst the vast majority, hoping that the connection you form together will last.

I'm not sure if this is a symptom of being chronically depressed or whether it's more a case of being lost to the banality of life in general. Maybe it's the sum of gaining and losing so much on an emotional level over the course of ones life. Either way, for me it can lend itself to a preference towards dreaming and imagining scenarios where I do feel alive, exhilarated with what is going on around me and in the company I keep. Away from that dream world, in order to achieve anything like it in reality I think it has to start on an internal level first; it can't simply be a case of throwing yourself into whatever activity you think will provoke it on an external level. Ultimately it may come back down to finding that one person you can have that unique connection with in order to knock something loose in order to find a way to progress and hopefully change or perhaps a mind more capable than our own can offer enough of themselves to help in a similar way.