I feel increasingly isolated and alone

Most days i barely remember and i feel like i barely exist. I have 2 close friends but they don’t live near me and one is getting married with a kid soon, so i feel like we’re probably going to drift apart eventually. Im super antisocial because i generally have a hard time trusting people and a hard time relating to basic things. Ive been slowly trying to better myself on my own but i dont really know if im doing it for me or to feel worthy of gaining a deep connection with someone. Not sure why im putting this here, but i guess i just needed to let it out somehow.

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Nihiless

We're almost alike although I don't have any friends. I was ostracized in my neighbourhood a long time ago and I've been estranged by previous people in my life. I just live for my daughter now. What interests do you have and is there anything that makes you particularly happy without depending on other people?