Here’s a long sigh..

Micheal rly can’t hack it smh he was fine for like 30 minutes and then boom he swears and starts talking about politics annd how life used to be so much better when we were kids and tries lay down next to me with his disgruntle tone and rambling. I tell him that I asked him several times tonight to stop and that this was not the environment I want to be in and got up and left to the other room. As I’m walking away he like “wait come back”, but I continue to go to the other room. Then a moment later he comes stomping over, and says “I have to work tomorrow I’m not gonna let u make me feel bad, im not gonna let you make me feel bad tomorrow.” And I said “I don’t want to participate in the atmosphere you’re creating out there”, and he goes, “I’m not creating anything”, and then stomps back out to the living room, and says again “I’m not gonna let u make me feel bad tomorrow when I’m working.” Ugh!- and then not even 5 minutes later I hear him starting to snore. He just falls asleep! He's peacefully snoring like nothing happened.
Meanwhile im the one left carrying all the emotional residue. All night it was “us” watching his favorite tv show. Celebrities kept showing up in the stupid commercials and since we were watching on an app, the same commercials kept repeating every time and everytime it’d trigger him to say the same things! It made me feel trapped!—- I just marched out there and turned off the tv. He’s asleep anyways! God damn! I don’t want to hear any more freaking noise ! I gotta work tomorrow too yah know! Sheesh! — smdh.

Can I just be home and not have to manage somebody else's energy?! A supposed “adult”! Smh. He’s just wasting time rambling and upsetting the peace when we could be connecting and freaking relaxing since WE BOTH have things to do!…. It’s exhausting. Feels like no escape like this.