Yeah let's make sure I don't get drunk on new years

Since my birthday is close to new year. It's like a double whammy me thinking about another year of wasted life and depressive lonely bullcrap. It's funny, when you take things one day at a time (which I do, but don't buy into the forcefully applied higher power bullshit). I have zero care for a future at all. Because tbh. Everything seems bleak and pointless. But with one day at a time. There is no ambition or progress in life. Genuflecting atm. Don't expect more of that from me, you won't get it. Just a doormat for favors people ask me for day after day and autopilot.