I'm really so afraid of people and I want to truly enjoy some kind of loving life with someone

But I'm scared and when people try to get to know me I just surround myself in a barrier of penis jokes and dorky knowledge and I don't wanna be hurt and confused anymore haha

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Life is just easier without relationships I guess.

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SW-User

Totally relatable.
Some day, you will find that special one. 💜 One that will rather die before he hurts you.

May even be one of those construction ones, who knows 😅 Kidding!

caccoon · 36-40

@SW-User and the shitty thing is, I think I have had those good partners too. Only a couple of times.

But I'm so messed up I don't appreciate them

SW-User

@caccoon It is not too late. There will be others, but this time you know, not to shut them out just to protect yourself. Bring that wall down a little, if you can. I know it is extremely hard to do.

caccoon · 36-40

@SW-User Yes kind of! I'm aware of what I do and feel after the fact, but when I am feeling emotions it's hard to gain perspective.

I think I need to build my confidence until I just have no tolerance for what is clearly not good for me so that the good ones are an easy choice.

SW-User

@caccoon Yes! Yes you got it. You're wise and intelligent, and it shows 👌