I'm really so afraid of people and I want to truly enjoy some kind of loving life with someone

@RebelFox yep, it rips you apart because it becomes all about them. I relate so much to the things you write... 💙 (Not to diminish what you write). But I think we have similar problems with relationships

@caccoon yes girl I’ve noticed too 😆 Do you have any idea what’s going on? I’m back and forth if I’m trying to be good to them, or being an idiot for caring? I don’t understand 😭

@RebelFox I feel very confused about it, too! I sometimes feel like maybe we need to tighten our filter a bit. Maybe we'll find some fairer humans if we spend less time and emotional energy (hurt) on the ones that don't respect us... And I like getting to know people, and not just tossing people aside right away. Even if my mind is telling me I should. And it's hard, because everyone is good in ways.

But we need to determine whether they are good for US 💙

@caccoon Do you feel like you see the beauty in nearly everyone? And it has nothing to do with physical appearance it’s just them. You see them. But who knows what they see. If they even see themselves. Often times I think my lovers just aren’t ready for the kind of love I offer. We know it’s good stuff 😘 But then you end up with users or misusers anyway. I really don’t know. I just keep being me. I’ve noticed over time though I put up with little to no shit, so I’m mostly alone. And when the really rare ones don’t like you back, it’s feels silly to care at all. Sigh. They might just have to come find me because I’m tired.

@RebelFox I feel that, I was just thinking about this earlier. Like knowing I don't want to put up with shit anymore but also feeling hopeless and helpless in finding someone good for me! But I think it's just being social and meeting more and more people and slowly getting to know them. Seeing how they interact with others, etc.

Because we should be ourselves. And we should love fiercely. But we need to jury who deserves to have all of it... Even though it's hard to contain

And yes, I get sort of manic about things I love. Or people I've just met, I get so excited about them. Platonically, romantically... Whatever. I just want to see the best in people. But it's weird because I'm also very untrusting haha. It's so confusing!

@caccoon You very eloquently explain through a lot of the confusion 😆 Patience is definitely required. You seem to do pretty well socially though?

@RebelFox yes! Patience for sure. But also sometimes do you think we spend too long on people that we already know aren't going to be good for us?

And I doooo, haha. Strangely! I faked it and now people seem to think I am some social person but I really still am shy and guard a lot of personal things so I have a hard time connecting with people genuinely.

I like to listen in real life, and I spill my personal stuff here.

I am always trying to figure out what they want me to be

@caccoon Girl YES 😞 Seriously my last bf would berate me and my only comeback was dude I love you 😆

I enjoy listening too. Or silence. I don’t think many people are able to be genuine right now, but I believe. I like you just as you are. I’m glad you’re out there girl. Gives me strength 🖤

@RebelFox same with you 💙 I really appreciate you 💙😊