I'm really so afraid of people and I want to truly enjoy some kind of loving life with someone

@SW-User I think people do accept me, but I find it hard to open up, or to know when to stop telling someone something. Or what to keep to myself so I just try to keep it all in.

But yeah, I am also hard to love and be around I think ahaha

@caccoon i truly get what youre saying!! I deal with social anxiety, so i clam up or i lash out. So, i dont know about me sometimes. My hubby has taken me as i am!! 😁

@SW-User it's hard! I often don't have a handle on my physical reactions to my emotions. Often I think it just makes me act awkward but yes, sometimes I get angry when I don't want to or be standoffish when I don't want to either, but I don't know how else to be haha

@caccoon im in the same boat!! Trust me!!

@SW-User I've found DBT has been massively helpful for me, but I still struggle!

I think being aware of it is huge. And you are lovely and so kind 💙 we're just very emotional people maybe

@caccoon i have recently been diagnosed BPD. I am very emotional and im learning to control my emotions. Especially anger!! I am slowly getting involved with DBT. Its helping some.....i have a lot of support from family and friends!! I was diagnosed bipolar for years. It took me getting a new psych doc to figure me out!! 💙

@SW-User amazing! I'm so glad you're getting into DBT. I did a six month course, it was a group thing and I found it really helpful.

I have BPD as well 💙

Mine is on the minor end but still, after learning more about it (when my psych mentioned it, and my counselor was...not surprised haha), it's helped. Learning that my reactions to things are still valid, but not always the best for me and those around me 💙

I'm proud of you for working on it! It's tough but really rewarding I think 💙

@caccoon thank you for sharing your struggles with me!! It helps to have someone you can relate to. I have an appt with my psych doc this week. She does the therapy along with the meds i need. Shes gonna reduce one and im afraid how its going to affect my behavior. 💖

@SW-User it does help! Not feeling alone in this stuff is so helpful, and so group therapy helped a lot. I didn't have to talk about my problems specifically, just vaguely. Listen to others. Reflect. It's great 💙

Med switches are always hard. 💙 I really hope it goes well! Do you like your psych?

@caccoon i love my psych, she actually listens compared to the old one i was with for 12 years. He retired and just dropped me. I was pissed it took hell and high water to find her. I trust her.

@caccoon i relate more to a female psych and a female therapist.

@SW-User good! Me too. I exclusively see female therapists/psychs (when possible). And GPs, too. I've moved a lot and have changed a lot, but the best ones have always been women so I feel you there 💙

I did have one very good male doctor though, who was genuine and kind and i felt comfortable with

@caccoon there you go!! Same wavelength!! Im gonna say good night. Catch up tomorrow!! Thanks again!! 🤗

@SW-User sleep well! Thanks so much for the chat 💙🤗 Helps a lot!! Sweet dreams 😘

@caccoon anytime!! My inbox is open to you!! The chat really did help!! 🤗💙😘