I don't know if I can do this again

I'm an a horrible person right now. But I just don't know if I can spend another day in the ER. That's pretty selfish of me. Last time we were here Joel's ex wife was our nurse but she's not here today. I can already tell the nurse is bothered by me. Every time I move she looks at me. I can't sit still. I have to get up and pace. It's going to be a long day