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AmbivalentFriability · 26-30
For me, the physical pain made me feel human again. I used to feel so numb. Like, when your leg falls asleep and you can feel the pressure of your hand on your skin... but you don't really [i]feel[/i] it. That's how my emotions were, that's what my whole life was. I felt dead, inhuman, and isolated, and like I was screaming with no voice. The sharp physical pain of cutting sort of stopped stopped that for a bit and I felt a little better in a way for a short time.
It was also a form of punishment. A manifestation of my intense self loathing.
It was a coping method.
It was also a form of punishment. A manifestation of my intense self loathing.
It was a coping method.
AmbivalentFriability · 26-30
It does cause more pain, but in my opinion physical pain and emotional pain can't really be compared. They're too different. Though, one can lead to another.