Ever Have One Of Those Days?

I've had one of those days that no matter what I've done so far, I can't just forget about it.

I had a seizure today, something that happens more often than I let people know about. The only good thing that happened was the aura I get sometimes hit early enough so I didn't play basketball on the floor with my head.

Came to lethargic, confused and alone. I hate that feeling. Sunk into depression and have been fighting it since. Stupid, dark thoughts that usually lurk in the background crawl forward. No, it's not so easy to kick them back as some might think. I'm not asking for pity, I'm not asking for anything really, I'm just venting it out, it helps sometimes to just get it out of my system, but even typing is an issue right now. As I tell people, times like this I have an intimate relationship with the backspace key.

Anyway, just dealing with a lot of crap and wanted to get it out. That was the original thinking behind finding EP and then coming here. A place to vent it and not worry about being committed and locked away for what is inside. Though, I'm sure I'd look pretty good in a straight jacket.

Not going to stick around after I post this, most likely won't be back till sometime tomorrow, so won't be able to answer anyone if you happen to reply, so know I'm not ignoring anyone. Just hiding in NF or another game.

Thank you to anyone that has taken the time to read this mess and please don't feel obligated to respond in any way even though this is posted under question. I'll be alright, this is not my first emotionally dark rodeo ride and won't be my last.

Stay safe everyone, be nice or at least respectful and take care.