I’m full of endless rage.

I grew up in a home with a narcissistic dad and an enabling mother. I had a lot of siblings who took on their bad traits, too. They all have a conscience but it’s just a screwed up one. All the things that were done to me throughout my childhood still lie dormant in my heart. I always have terrible anger deep inside. Occasionally it comes out, but it seems like it’s just endless. It never runs dry. It’s always there. It tortures me.

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Graylight · 51-55, F

Change your story. Rather than use the things that have happened to you as a crutch or an excuse (if you do) , use them proof to propel you toward greater things. They have lessons valuable tools contained within them. Use the past - don't let the past use you.

It sounds like a good therapist could be a benefit to you. Not because you're crazy or there's anything wrong with you - just because it's good to have a mental cleaning day once in awhile, and if you have real issues to work on it can be an invaluable tool. Good luck.