Dead Behind The Eyes.

Laying in bed. Slipping into depression. No more booze. No distractions. Just the screaming of inadequacies and self loathing.
Never enough.
Not good.
Unloved.
Broken.
Scarred.
No matter how much time passes, I'll always be that little fat kid in the dark crying.

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Montanaman · M

Damn 🤗👍👍 make me tear up won't ya.😔

bunnyXbunny · 36-40, M

@Montanaman Sorry.

Montanaman · M

@bunnyXbunny no, on the contrary, even dark feelings expressed in words can move me.
I like being moved. Being touched.👍

Pitchblue

@bunnyXbunny Alcohol is a depressant. Maybe that's your number one problem.

bunnyXbunny · 36-40, M

@Pitchblue It's also one of the best ways to stop my mind from screaming.

Pitchblue

@bunnyXbunny I understand I have a reel of past mistakes I have to go over every night before I go to sleep but the alcohol caused so much extra grief in my life.