Why isn't my antidepressant working ?

I was just reading about how gene tests can help psychiatrists with finding medication more apt to work based on your body. Its very interesting, maybe you should talk to your doctor about it. I will too!
Also, I'm sure you already know, but consistency is key with having medication perform well. Also, eating before and after usually helps me fight off some of the physical side effects, and heightens my focus throughout the day.

go to therapy. i have at several different times in my life and did for mos of my early adulthood due to abuse as a child. the pills work best with behavior modification and talk therapy. i promise you it will get better.

Well drugs on their own aren't usually enough, taking them while being in some form of therapy is a good approach.

part of your mind has your controls.

... ground control to Major Tom
take your protein pills and put your helmet on .....

It often takes a while and sometimes trying several befor funding what works for you

You're still living in it. You can't be free because you won't let yourself be free