I need energy

I have no energy at all today.
I mean if breathing wasn't automatic body function I would be dead already because I just don't want to do anything.
My head is like a heavy concrete cube sitting on my neck.
I am not working today as I told them some lie why I can't.
This day will be really bad. Full of guilt. Full of self shame.
I don't want to be like this. I hate it.
I could just slap myself to move my ass off the sofa.
But moving my hand takes so much energy....

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LilMissAnonyMOUSE · F

Not an advice but just sharing what I try to do to help me change the chip in my head and heal the wound in my heart :

-Take long walks/ run/ exercise where there is nature preferably, and while doing so I become contemplative but tell myself that it must have a positive purpose/outcome and not just dwell on negative things that make me sink deeper.

-Allow myself to dream and plan for a tomorrow that I want for me. It helps develop hope, vital for survival.

Guilt means we feel, so we must forgive ourselves and make amends for a wrong we have done because while atonement may not erase the scar, it's the first step to healing the wounds we've caused in others and within us too.

-Last but not least, consider each day a gift, every day is a chance to better our lives.

I hope this helps you somehow😊