Question about cancer

Ok so my PCP has been ordering all these tests, just to be on the safe side, not because he suspects anything, but it got me to thinking...
I told my family that if they ever find cancer in me, I will not take the treatments. I've seen too many people live a miserable existence and lose the fight. I don't want to put my family through that and for them to have hope and then have it jerked right out of their hands. I also believe that it's God's will whether or not I live.
Is this a selfish way to feel?

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Miram · 31-35, F

We all lose the fight. We all die, whether we have cancer or not.

Having cancer is just another life challenge. Just like disabilities, just like autoimmune diseases...etc

I rarely mention this but I was born with a heart defect. Earlier in my life, doctors told me that I wouldn't even make it to my 30 years old. One even told me to quit medical sciences because the life style would kill me.

And I, because of many earlier painful life experiences, wasn't planning to live pass my 28 of age anyways. So it wasn't a big deal to me and I didn't really take it to heart. There are no guarantees in life. Kids die everyday and suffer everyday and worse without having an underlying health issue

Life happened. I was needed. I was loved. I fell in love. I had entire communities depending on me...etc etc. And I got stuck here with you all.

I am 35 years old. Though I have some health issues, I will still push through them. Death will come anyway.