Very anxious today

I have a doctor’s appointment today and my chest won’t stop tightening. I keep telling myself it’s routine, but last night I dove into my blood work online and then absolutely spiraled — thank you, internet, for giving me answers and nightmares at 2 a.m. Technology is amazing for access, but it also makes every result feel gigantic when you Google it alone.

I wish someone could come with me. I’m not looking forward to sitting in that waiting room by myself, trying to breathe while my mind runs through worst-case scenarios. It’s hard because I’m so used to being alone that asking to be held or to have someone drive me feels impossible — like there’s no one I can really lean on in these moments.