I started to hate my father again.
My family isn't really whole - it's pretty broken, and I accepted that a long time ago. My father works abroad because opportunities here in my country aren’t that great. Technically, my parents are still married, but in reality, they’ve been separated for a long time - just not on paper. My father also has a mistress abroad.
Right now, my mother is sick and needs help. My father said he would come back home for about a month to help take care of her and assist with everything. When he told my mom, she was touched and even cried. I don’t know their emotional connection anymore. I always thought they were done with each other, but sometimes when they talk on the phone, they still seem oddly close - so I don’t really know if they still love each other or not.
Anyway, he came home. But instead of helping, he’s causing my mom more stress. I’m away most of the time for work, and when I come home, my mom just vents to me. She tells me that my dad doesn’t really want to help. He can’t stay at home - he’s always out doing things, buying stuff, but never anything for her. So my mom is still left at home with my sister, doing everything.
What really made me upset was that my mom had a doctor’s appointment yesterday. She went with my dad and my aunt. But my dad left them there. He didn’t stay, didn’t help - he just left. And now he’s saying he wants to go to the province alone. He said he’ll just pay my aunt to take care of my mom while he’s gone.
That honestly broke me. I can’t help but think the real reason he wants to go is to visit his mistress’ family. Our province is just a neighboring town from theirs, and I’ve seen this happen before.
Last year, I went with my dad to the province. I was really happy and excited because we barely spent time together growing up. He left to work abroad when I was still young, so this was a rare chance for us to bond. But even then, he kept leaving me behind to visit his mistress’ family. I was stuck with my grandmother, completely devastated. I even walked 10 kilometers to downtown, crying the entire way, just to clear my head.
And now it’s happening again - but this time, it’s my mom being left behind. She’s the one sick, and she’s being abandoned.
I just wanted to let this out. I'm tired. Problems just keep piling up. I thought his return would bring some relief, but instead, it’s more of the same pain.
Right now, my mother is sick and needs help. My father said he would come back home for about a month to help take care of her and assist with everything. When he told my mom, she was touched and even cried. I don’t know their emotional connection anymore. I always thought they were done with each other, but sometimes when they talk on the phone, they still seem oddly close - so I don’t really know if they still love each other or not.
Anyway, he came home. But instead of helping, he’s causing my mom more stress. I’m away most of the time for work, and when I come home, my mom just vents to me. She tells me that my dad doesn’t really want to help. He can’t stay at home - he’s always out doing things, buying stuff, but never anything for her. So my mom is still left at home with my sister, doing everything.
What really made me upset was that my mom had a doctor’s appointment yesterday. She went with my dad and my aunt. But my dad left them there. He didn’t stay, didn’t help - he just left. And now he’s saying he wants to go to the province alone. He said he’ll just pay my aunt to take care of my mom while he’s gone.
That honestly broke me. I can’t help but think the real reason he wants to go is to visit his mistress’ family. Our province is just a neighboring town from theirs, and I’ve seen this happen before.
Last year, I went with my dad to the province. I was really happy and excited because we barely spent time together growing up. He left to work abroad when I was still young, so this was a rare chance for us to bond. But even then, he kept leaving me behind to visit his mistress’ family. I was stuck with my grandmother, completely devastated. I even walked 10 kilometers to downtown, crying the entire way, just to clear my head.
And now it’s happening again - but this time, it’s my mom being left behind. She’s the one sick, and she’s being abandoned.
I just wanted to let this out. I'm tired. Problems just keep piling up. I thought his return would bring some relief, but instead, it’s more of the same pain.
22-25, M
