i scheduled an appointment to get screened for skin cancer tomorrow

anxious bc have no income, no insurance. there's first-come-first-serve free screenings in the city but they're a month out and i've already put this off for... a great deal of time. so, i'm spending almost $200 minimum tomorrow. $100-$125 per biopsy if needed. but i also forgot to request a female dermatologist and i don't really want a man looking at my bare back and tiddies sorryyy

also, once upon a time i had a wicked eating disorder lol. i have basically recovered and over the last few years i have gained a lot of weight. so i'm healthy now but still learning to be comfortable in my body. and i ate sooo much food this morning bc i didn't expect they'd be able to take me tomorrow and now i feel bloated and don't want to be seen. i don't want to spend hundreds to recieve possible life changing news. but more than those things i don't want cancer. which i know i don't but this will give me some peace of mind, and i just gotta push past the discomfort to get checked out

also I promised my roommate i'd made dinner tonight but the comments to the recipe i was looking at were like "do you have a toilet or is it just a porcelain puddle" so idk if i want to try it tonight if im going to be in close quarters with a stranger tomorrow lmfao but i bet its bomb af if it gets to marinate overnight anyway. then i have leftovers when i get home 🙂‍↕