Feeling so ill
I never been supported or felt or understood when iam which makes me even question myself my sanity.. I even start to underestimate my health till i become even sicker... Im neglecting myself often even not believing that im sick and that i need to stop everything that hurts melike housework.. Bc everytime ido it i just get sicker.. More aches more more rigidity in my back... I even get anxiety when i talk about my physical or mental issues.. Bc they often say that im mhysically okay and that im not okay mentally and having hallucinations even when they see me doing housework oh u look okay ur fine u can do things u can do anything ur fine.. Look at u.. Thats why i became discreet abt my health.. If i say i have emotional issues then im crazy and i dont have physical issues... If if i say i have physical issues then im pretending or lying or crazy... And if im discreet.. Then im discreet and hiding things.. Lol this is insane.. Im starting to feel insane sometimes with all of this.. But sometimes.. I let go and forget.. But deep down i know it hurted me at some point and when the physical pain is huge my emotional pain is huge as well bc i know it wasnt fair and it is still not fair.. And im alone and lonely bc of that..