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Feeling so ill

I never been supported or felt or understood when iam which makes me even question myself my sanity.. I even start to underestimate my health till i become even sicker... Im neglecting myself often even not believing that im sick and that i need to stop everything that hurts melike housework.. Bc everytime ido it i just get sicker.. More aches more more rigidity in my back... I even get anxiety when i talk about my physical or mental issues.. Bc they often say that im mhysically okay and that im not okay mentally and having hallucinations even when they see me doing housework oh u look okay ur fine u can do things u can do anything ur fine.. Look at u.. Thats why i became discreet abt my health.. If i say i have emotional issues then im crazy and i dont have physical issues... If if i say i have physical issues then im pretending or lying or crazy... And if im discreet.. Then im discreet and hiding things.. Lol this is insane.. Im starting to feel insane sometimes with all of this.. But sometimes.. I let go and forget.. But deep down i know it hurted me at some point and when the physical pain is huge my emotional pain is huge as well bc i know it wasnt fair and it is still not fair.. And im alone and lonely bc of that..
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LadyGrace · 70-79
That's just it. We don't need to be "understood". People will always have a habit of trying to find the worst in people and criticize them. Who says we have to please them? We weren't born/created to be people pleasers. We know who we are and that's enough. Others don't know us like we do and they never will. We can't control how people think of us, but we can control how much we love ourselves so that we set our boundaries and don't allow others to judge us. We make our own happiness. We don't find happiness, we create it. We must love ourselves enough to not allow others to rock our boat. If you keep worrying about what others think about you, you will create your own illness. Each one of us are responsible or how we allow others to treat us. We teach people how to treat us and if they go beyond our boundaries, then they don't care a bit about us. They are just domineering people. Nothing says we have to do what anybody says and if they don't like it they can leave. We don't need people like that in our lives. If you don't get out of this mode of pleasing people, you will be miserable for the rest of your entire life. Love yourself enough to be happy with what you do and decide. Be fair to yourself. Don't expect more of yourself than you can give. People will never respect you, that way. People who take care of themselves the way they should, have a healthy mind. We were never created to take care of other's needs, over our own, to where we are neglecting ourselves. You must take care of yourself and take up for yourself. If you don't, no one else will. And also if you don't, someone else will get what was meant for you! Don't cheat yourself out of happiness. We are made with great resiliency. We are not helpless or hopeless.

 
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