This post is gross, and I’m very ignorant
I’ve started running again, and it feels great. I’ve cut almost 40 seconds off my current mile time, and am training to get to where I was before all this mess.
But I still have an open wound from where the tumor pretty much ripped me open. That hasn’t closed up, and it even looks like it’s growing again. (Yes, I’ve talked to my oncologist. Everything hinges on what the surgeon will say after my appointment in August)
It stinks and leaks more now that I’m running again. I feel gross and ashamed and frustrated, because I want this to be over with already. I have goals and ideas of what I want in life.
I’d been talking with a case manager who was trying to find me some programs that could help me through this whole process. I told her the results of my latest PET scan. “Just waiting to see what the surgeon says. Dr. told me the tumor was necrotic but there was a bit of cancer on my lungs. Not sure if they’re going to cut part of my lung or if there’s more they can do to shrink it, but it’s pretty much dead. 😊”
“Now, I’m not a doctor…” she said, “But I think it’s stage 4 if it’s metastasized. 😥”
“Last I heard, it was 3C. I mean, it still shrunk from that.”
“Also, I don’t think ‘necrotic’ is a good thing when it’s still in your body. ☹️“
Oh…
Then my sister who was in the medical field said the same thing. My bad. I only know some medical word parts because I had to learn them when I was training to be a court reporter. I know nothing about application of the words. And doctors don’t elaborate unless you ask, but I didn’t realize I needed him to elaborate. I thought a tumor being dead tissue meant the beast was slain. My bad.
I stink. 😔 …I’m still going to go running. 😃
But I still have an open wound from where the tumor pretty much ripped me open. That hasn’t closed up, and it even looks like it’s growing again. (Yes, I’ve talked to my oncologist. Everything hinges on what the surgeon will say after my appointment in August)
It stinks and leaks more now that I’m running again. I feel gross and ashamed and frustrated, because I want this to be over with already. I have goals and ideas of what I want in life.
I’d been talking with a case manager who was trying to find me some programs that could help me through this whole process. I told her the results of my latest PET scan. “Just waiting to see what the surgeon says. Dr. told me the tumor was necrotic but there was a bit of cancer on my lungs. Not sure if they’re going to cut part of my lung or if there’s more they can do to shrink it, but it’s pretty much dead. 😊”
“Now, I’m not a doctor…” she said, “But I think it’s stage 4 if it’s metastasized. 😥”
“Last I heard, it was 3C. I mean, it still shrunk from that.”
“Also, I don’t think ‘necrotic’ is a good thing when it’s still in your body. ☹️“
Oh…
Then my sister who was in the medical field said the same thing. My bad. I only know some medical word parts because I had to learn them when I was training to be a court reporter. I know nothing about application of the words. And doctors don’t elaborate unless you ask, but I didn’t realize I needed him to elaborate. I thought a tumor being dead tissue meant the beast was slain. My bad.
I stink. 😔 …I’m still going to go running. 😃
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