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That’s not my face

Insecurity. The shame of feeling ashamed. I didn’t wear makeup for the longest time because I was okay with how I looked. I’m not pretty, but my face wasn’t so bad. When I got sick last month and needed surgery for a bowel obstruction, there were two weeks when I didn’t eat. The hospital hooked me up to an IV and that was that until they started introducing liquid foods to me. Then I got sick again a couple weeks ago and was back on a liquid diet in the hospital. I lost a dangerous amount of weight and haven’t been able to gain it back even though I’m eating again.

My hair fell out, including eyelashes and eyebrows; not all, but noticeable patches of my brows missing. My scalp showing severely. I look sick. I look in the mirror and can’t stand that face. That’s not me!…yes it is right now. Just for now. It’s hard to accept that, so I put a bit of color on my cheeks and eyelids (hide those missing lashes a bit). Gotta look like a human being again.
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AuRevoir · 36-40, M
Woah, woah. woah, woah...

I skyped you like a million bazillion times... You're SUPER pretty...

But not feeling like you look like yourself truly does matter the most in my opinion... Even if other people say it to us, our self image and what we like to see us look like that can make us feel comfortable in our own skin, is what's needed the most...

I'm so sorry you're going through this... But again.. You're super pretty.. But I'm sure the opinions of others mean little in this trying time of what you're fighting against and facing... But the truth does need to be said too, and you are indeed pretty...

I wish you well, I want you to recover from all this... So you can be happy and think "My face isn't so bad.." again... Even if you're not narcissistic enough to come to terms with your own beauty..
@AuRevoir Aw. 🥺 You know, I miss the long random conversations. We’ve gotta talk again sometime. It was fun.
AuRevoir · 36-40, M
@Colonelmustardseed Haha.. I'm not as fun as I used to be unfortunately.. 😂😷 But I love chatting regardless...

I still have your snap.. But I also have discord, and skype.. Idk which way of communication you prefer, but if you're ever in a chatty mood.. let me know, but i do audio chats these days cuz I'm like you and don't like looking at my face anymore.. 😂
@AuRevoir It’s okay. I’m not as funny as I used to be, so we’re even. 🙂
AuRevoir · 36-40, M
@Colonelmustardseed 👀☕ Pshhh, you would be if you weren't having to fight all this... 🙄☕ Unlike me who has no excuse and is simply littered in his own bad decisions and vices... 😒☕
@AuRevoir I’m gonna ask about your misadventures. 🧐
AuRevoir · 36-40, M
@Colonelmustardseed 👀🥤 They're honestly not that entertaining, but it would quickly satiate your curiosity I suppose...