I am a New Member at Similar Worlds

NPC: It has been that at times. 'Toxic', what a way to describe my marriage. It's a bitter pill to swallow, but swallow it I must if I can move onwards and upwards with my life. I still have my lovely kids, god knows how they have turned out so amazing, happy and beautiful with us as parents. We have always put them first and they have had everything they need to become better people than us. A nice home, great school, plenty of time spent and we tell them we love them every single day and twice on sundays. I believe my late father-in-law, John who was a very special man with an amazing intellect has been guiding us through this. I feel his presence and strength to help me through the dark times and to make the right desisions. I'm not religous but I do believe that our energy lives on after our death and can effect physical things. Good things happen to good people and despite my flaws, and Sarahs, I still believe that good things will happen, are happening to make our lives better. I am still not over her, but the pain is receding slightly. The new man may not be all he's cracked up to be in her eyes, but he's not the reason for our split, just the catylist for what needs to happen to stop the stalemate and move things forward. I hope that we can still be as friendly to each other as we have been recently. Sarah told me last night that when we went to do the machine installation the other day, she had to hold back tears as we chatted and got on like we used to in the good old days. I hope that relationship can continue into our seperate lives and we can still be a family (of sorts) into the future, sharing special moments and having happy memories....weddings, birthdays, Christmas's etc. The good stuff. I would appreciate your thoughts. Thanks guys.