I am a New Member at Similar Worlds

I slept like a log last night. We had a wines but I only drank a bottle and a bit (yes it is quite a lot). She called me 'love'....by accident I think but it was like being thrown a safety line when your drowning in the sea. yesterday we signed the sale and purchase agreement for my new house. I dropped it off at the vendors house with Somer and we went to the house to have a look as its vacant at the moment. I felt a little flat again...I'm mainly just going through the motions but I seem to have so much energy to get things done. Sarah is renewing her passport and it's two months until her trip to see him. I'm sure I'll be in a better frame of mind by then but right now all I can think about is how they are together...does he make her laugh, do they cuddle, does she kiss him like we used to kiss...is he good in bed...does she orgasm really easily.... It gives me a horrible sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. Will that feeling go away with time, I couldn't bear it if I felt like this for ever.

How many 'true' loves do we have in our lives? People that touch our souls in a deep way, people we share life with. Is there any more love in my heart for someone else? Sarah and I have done so much together 3 kids, property development. We own and run 3 businesses and have 3 rental properties....wow a lot of 3's.. We are going to have to carry on working together to keep it all going, especially the children. She says she wants to stay 'friends'....if nipple ring comes over I don't think I could be friends with him...I will get an irresisitable urge to punch him in the face! He's 5'9" and skinny as and I'm 6'3" and built like an outhouse so he may learn how to fly at that point....just saying!! Please keep replying, it's great to have an outlet like this and I really appreciate your advise and support xx