I am a New Member at Similar Worlds

To say this has been a traumatic week would be a massive understatement. I can't get the visions of her and the new man out of my head. The other night we sat on our deck and had a really awesome chat. We talked openly for the first time for years. We complemented each other and truths were exchanged. I've found a house close by. The kids can go between them on their bikes and the school is right next door. I love it as it's quite rural. There are paddocks at the back and no neighbours too close. We had a nice family meal last night and were united with the children. I don't want to have a crappy realationship with her. We both told each other that we still love them and we always will. I need to be strong and keep going forward. I'm frightened of what the future holds. Sarah and I were a team at home and work. She's an amazing saleswoman and I did a lot of the other stuff. I don't really know what I will do for a job. I want me and the kids to have the same lifestyle. Most of all I fear the loneliness when they are with their mum. I just need to get up have a shower and get on with my day every day and keep smiling for them. Friends have been great. The one person I'm too scared to talk to is my mum. She's the love of my life and I know her heart will be breaking too.