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The grief was like someone you love very much has died. It's numbing and all consuming. It's a deep depression that can't be got out of. Like wading through thick sludge. You can't get away because it's in your head and nothing can stop it..... I arranged for her to have a chat. I was going to ask her direct questions and make arrangements for us to start separating finances etc. But when she turned up I threw my arms around her and begged her to stay with me, to give it another go. I sobbed from the bottom of my heart and I couldn't stop. I didn't want to let her go. She said she knew I would do that. How could she when I didn't know myself?? It was so raw.